EXCERPTS: ''A copy of the ‘evidence’ is with a respected minister of the gospel should the christian body decide to deal with this issue now and that becomes needful. I am not looking to have a ‘me against them’ case where I need to prove I’m right and someone is wrong. I am far from right, but I have used the only means available to me to free myself of the bondage I put myself in''.
Nigerians should really be getting bored of this Ese-Fatoyinbo story by now, especially when nothing is being done about it. What a country.
Anyway,it is my duty to report daily happenings and so if the necessary quarters who should attend to this issue don't attend to it, it shouldn't stop me from carrying out my own duties.should it?
Please read Ese's recent write up below. She promises this will be the last one though.Let's hope so.
About six months ago, I was watching a lot of Apple ads on
YouTube and heard something that has never left me. You should watch the
YouTube video, it’s truly inspiring. Here’s what I heard:
“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the
troublemakers, the round pegs in square holes, the ones who see things
differently, they are not fond of rules and have no respect for the status quo.
You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify
them but the only thing you can’t do, is ignore them because they change
things.
They push the human race forward and while some may see them
as the crazy ones, we see genius because the people, who are crazy enough to
think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
The past week has
‘killed’ me. It has stripped me of whatever ‘self-importance’ I nursed in the
corners of
my mind. It has broken me and opened me up to my real self.
It has brought me to a deeper level of self-awareness, one I am most grateful
for.
When I sat with my MacBook to type my last blog, I never
imagined it would generate the kind of attention it did and continues to. I
have one last thing to say on this issue
before I lay it to rest and move on. (I also hope others can
move on too, we
have too much going on in this Country to continue to peddle
one for longer
than necessary.)
A very big thank you to everyone that has felt it necessary
to talk about this issue and spread it throughout Nigeria and the foreign
scene. I read every email sent to me with awe that people would take the time
out to reach a total stranger like me. Some were cursing, calling me a witch
from the pit of hell sent to destroy the church as though one individual/church
is bigger than the body of Christ. As though God is mere man and would cringe
in heaven saying, “Ese don did it this time.” Or as if
the good Book didn’t state clearly that ALL things work out
for good for those
that love God.
Do you love God? If yes, trust that it will ALL turn around
for good.
Some people say, ‘I support you, you are brave and
courageous’ and I wonder if those terms really define me. I do not think I am
brave or courageous. I do know, however that after decades of sleepwalking
through life, I am now becoming aware not just of myself but also of my
environment, my world, and the universe.
Some say, put out the evidence and we will believe you.
Hmmm, the morning I sat to write that post, I really didn’t expect anyone to
believe me. Well, apart from those involved. And my motive was simple, let one
more woman be spared. Let one more minister of the gospel be mindful and let
the church rise up to its responsibilities as God’s legal representatives here
in the earth realm.
A copy of the ‘evidence’ is with a respected minister of the
gospel should the christian body decide to deal with this issue now and that
becomes needful. I am not looking to have a ‘me against them’ case where I need
to prove I’m right and someone is wrong. I am far from right, but I have used
the only means available to me to free myself of the bondage I put myself in.
Lastly, to all the media people seeking interviews and
whatever else mailing me, I have nothing more to say on this issue. I cannot
reply every email as reading them is beginning to seem like a new job.
I remember asking a friend once while reading the book of
Acts, “Why do we no longer operate in the power the disciples did in Jesus
day?” What has changed? How do we ‘unchange’ it?
God is not mocked, if we serve Him, let’s serve Him. We
cannot continue to grow as a Nation by oppressing, delaying justice, hating,
having the ME ME ME mentality. As Martin Luther King Jr said, ‘no one is free
until we are all free.’
Things have got to change and it begins with us. It begins
with each and every one of us borrowing courage to stand for what we believe
in. Fela Durotoye once said, ‘that thing that annoys you most in society is a
sign that you carry its solution.’ (I’m
paraphrasing)
Nothing has called out to me more than people, especially
women, suffering in some way and hiding the pain. Whatever we cover doesn’t go
away. It grows and it finds different outlets to rear its ugly head until we
deal with it.
I am not perfect, I will never be, but I am enough to try
what I feel might work. I don’t know what the entire bible says but I am
learning and applying the little I find out
daily. And I think everyone owes it to himself or herself to
figure it out for
themselves.
At the end of the day, we agree that ‘men of God’ are
firstly men, right? This means it’s needless expecting them to help you in your
growth with God. I fell into that trap of thinking a ‘man of God’ is equated to
God and it is not new to find people fall in that hole.
How do you begin to learn to serve a God you have never
seen? It takes another level of faith to do that but we live in a
generation/Country where people don’t want to study for themselves. They don’t
want to read the Scriptures. Well, they don’t want to read, period. They want
to pursue things instead and have somebody do the praying and studying for
them. If you fall in that category, you need to repent.
I learnt that when the veil was torn, we all were given
equal access to the Father. No matter how long you may have been in church, if
you don’t know what that means you better ask somebody. And seek a real
relationship with the God you claim to serve.
That is what I am spending most of my time doing these days.
Praying, studying, seeking, knocking. The peace I have felt despite all the
hate mails and tantrums shows that God is not angry with me and I did what I
needed to do to the best of my
understanding.
My apologies to everyone this has affected in one way or
another.
Firstly, my family: I don’t know how you guys aren’t sick of
me yet wink
Secondly, ‘the body of Christ,’ my intention was never to
cause trouble but to stop a rot I felt might spread and become worse if nobody
spoke up about it.
Lastly, to those who said I shouldn’t blog again, I respect
and understand your concerns but the truth is, writing is not just my gift, it
is also my ‘curse’. I cannot ‘NOT’ write but I PROMISE, this is the last I will
say on this issue except the christian body needs to see me.
God is building His church, and the gates of hell shall not
prevail against it. No sin is too big to wreck anyone’s faith. If it does, then
it means it’s working out a greater good for you. You will definitely come out
stronger and better in the end. Like my best friend says “in the end, it will
be all right and if it ain’t alright, it’s not
the end.”
“…forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching
forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize
of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” Paul.
Cheers to the weekend people
What's her aim really?
ReplyDeleteAfter all is said, we are commanded to watch and pray because we all have only one enemy-the devil- seeking who he may take advantage of. 2. Looking at all the write ups over some days only time will tell if the costs is greater or less than the benefits. Is it worth the trouble telling people on the street that one is gullible or ? 3. No matter the confessions made both parties will be hunted more by what is not said than what are said now. 4. Truly to err is human but to forgive is divine-that is what I can see here. 5. Marriage demands high level of maturity and confidentiality_ will the Lady future husband not be potentially endangered?
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